This weekend was tough. I came out of it on the better side feeling stronger than ever. (See previous posts.) I find it hard to believe that I’m doing this whole sobriety thing and coming out on top.
After an entire weekend watching my significant other pound down the alcohol, I waited to hear what he thought about the incident. He said it is clear that he has a problem. He wants better for himself and for me. I’m cautiously optimistic because I’ve been there myself. After days of binge drinking, I was always ready to leave that life behind. As we know, as soon as we start feeling better, we forget what made us feel like crap in the first place.
I realize that this relationship is less than healthy and that I sound like an idiot. I’m having a hard time thinking of life without him. We’ve been together for over 4 years. We don’t live together as I’ve been smart enough to realize that would be a total nightmare. I don’t know where we will go from here. I only know that I’m happy to still be sober.
Vodka Goggles 
You are strong.. I am right with you, and having our partners drink by our sides is no easy feat.. But you keeping your eyes on your self and your sobriety.. This will build these sober muscles.. Xo
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A sister in sobriety!! Yay!
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I’m in a similar situation, also. This time I’m trying to view his drinking as exactly how I DON’T want to be. It’s only day 4, but it’s helping….
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Oh wow! I’m sorry to hear that you are in this shitty situation. I almost didn’t blog about it because I didn’t feel it would be helpful to anyone other than myself.
Maybe this is a way for us to view ourselves from the outside. Like, is that really how I look and act? I know it solidifies my resolve to stay sober.
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That’s exactly what I’m doing. 🙂 And practicing detached compassion…as in, viewing him like a research project, watching but not interfering. 😉
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Exactly!! I have compassion but also realize that only he can decide to stop.
It’ll be interesting to see where this relationship goes.
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Advice: don’t let it drag on if it’s not going to change. You’ll lose yourself in the long run.
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I think I’m coming back from losing myself.
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Don’t stop now! 🙂
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It’s strange watching someone drink and knowing how toxic it is and still trying to be sort of accepting of it. My psych said I shouldn’t wait around and sort of tolerate it. Breaking free means exactly that. Good Luck, I hope you guys can work it through.
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Thank you! As you know, the sober blog world has fewer men. I’ve pointed him in your direction.
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