This weekend was tough. I came out of it on the better side feeling stronger than ever. (See previous posts.) I find it hard to believe that I’m doing this whole sobriety thing and coming out on top.
After an entire weekend watching my significant other pound down the alcohol, I waited to hear what he thought about the incident. He said it is clear that he has a problem. He wants better for himself and for me. I’m cautiously optimistic because I’ve been there myself. After days of binge drinking, I was always ready to leave that life behind. As we know, as soon as we start feeling better, we forget what made us feel like crap in the first place.
I realize that this relationship is less than healthy and that I sound like an idiot. I’m having a hard time thinking of life without him. We’ve been together for over 4 years. We don’t live together as I’ve been smart enough to realize that would be a total nightmare. I don’t know where we will go from here. I only know that I’m happy to still be sober.