I’m Really Doing This

This weekend was tough. I came out of it on the better side feeling stronger than ever. (See previous posts.) I find it hard to believe that I’m doing this whole sobriety thing and coming out on top.

After an entire weekend watching my significant other pound down the alcohol, I waited to hear what he thought about the incident. He said it is clear that he has a problem. He wants better for himself and for me. I’m cautiously optimistic because I’ve been there myself. After days of binge drinking, I was always ready to leave that life behind. As we know, as soon as we start feeling better, we forget what made us feel like crap in the first place.

I realize that this relationship is less than healthy and that I sound like an idiot. I’m having a hard time thinking of life without him. We’ve been together for over 4 years. We don’t live together as I’ve been smart enough to realize that would be a total nightmare. I don’t know where we will go from here. I only know that I’m happy to still be sober.

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11 thoughts on “I’m Really Doing This

  1. You are strong.. I am right with you, and having our partners drink by our sides is no easy feat.. But you keeping your eyes on your self and your sobriety.. This will build these sober muscles.. Xo

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  2. It’s strange watching someone drink and knowing how toxic it is and still trying to be sort of accepting of it. My psych said I shouldn’t wait around and sort of tolerate it. Breaking free means exactly that. Good Luck, I hope you guys can work it through.

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